Clearing and harnessing vital life energy

I was noticing how I was ruminating on old thought patterns. I was having thoughts of desire and anger and wondering what if? I was reading Dākinī's Warm Breath and readings for this class and writing down quotes about desire and how this is vital energy and the constant want for what we don't have is suffering that repeats.

I wrote down quotes in my journal on practice day. I was feeling these thoughts and feelings escalate on the new moon. I did a cleansing ceremony that was able to thank all these feelings and heighten them and then work in chanting and bathing to let them go. I want to redirect this energy into my own chakral energy bodies to utilize in beneficial ways.

I watched the documentary e-motion, which was relevant to this process and then got shiatsu bodywork to clear out stagnancy in my muscles. I appreciate having multiple modalities to work with these energies, which have been distracting and causing suffering for myself and my partner. Thank you, Goddess, for showing up in this form!

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